I really wish you could have spent the last two days with the children you cared for as your son and daughter. She just turned four on Saturday and he will be six in a month. You had them when she was a baby and he was two. I cannot understand how you could care for them as your own children for an extended period of time and then decide to give them away like they were puppies or something.
I wish you could have been here to hear my son tell me that he does not love me because you are the only parents he has ever loved and he will never love anyone else. I wish you could be here to explain your decision to him as he kicks his foot completely through the drywall in his room because he's angry about getting the wrong kind of candy. I wish you could be here to explain to him why he had to leave his dog behind when he went to a new home. I pray every day that your poor choice does not screw him up for the rest of his life.
I love my son dearly, but it would have been so much better for him if you would have honored the commitment you made to him in the beginning and chose to get help to work through his issues with him instead of handing him back to the system. You know, a neglected child doesn't behave very well and you really could have worked with him and sought professional help in order to deal with him so that maybe by now, since he will be six soon, he would be able to function normally.
You know what, he is an amazing child with an incredible sense of humor, who is really smart and really loving. Unfortunately, because of your lack of commitment to him, it takes a lot of work to get past the anger in order to see who he really is and have the opportunity spend time with that sweet boy.
I hope your life is perfect and you are happy with your decisions!
Sincerely,
The mother who will never give up on him
